Sunday, September 18, 2016

"We keep moving forward"- Walt Disney

Things are changing in my life.

I want this blog to become more of a focus in my life- as I have wanted for so many years.

My time at my current job is almost over. And although this is an extremely difficult patch for me, in some ways I am relieved.

I feel like this is the time for real growth in my life and to become what I have really want to become. Which is some role in Fashion/Media/Travelling

These are things I enjoy. I'm on a very bumpy road to self discovery. It hasn't been easy over the past couple of weeks. Especially when you're missing a few people on the journey.

One of my best friends and I are not talking and it is hard. I have been far too proud to send her a message and it's silly... I should reach out to her.

On a positive note. My mom and I have had a very rewarding conversation and I feel very happy.


Tuesday, July 26, 2016


On the road to Potchefstroom

It's been almost two months since I got back from this holiday.

But I miss all these people and places. I would love to go back.

My Chelsea Bun

This holiday was just what I needed. Being all alone, driving somewhere alone. Being (almost) completely independent.

One day i will be driving my very own car and having the time of my life.

An absolutely, amazingly, stunning gorgoeous, lovely cousin!

Not grinding, but living life to the fullest.

Thursday, July 21, 2016


I recently split up with someone who used to consume most of my spare time.
I knew it was over, he just went quiet.

Its been three weeks now and I still wish I could come back home and cuddle up into his arms.

But I realize the faults of our relationship. The way he used to speak to me, and the little things he did that made me feel sad.

I remember the good parts, I want to reply to the text he sent me the other day. I want to. But I know it's time to move forward. This up and down shit does nothing for me, it's really destructive. I wish things could have been different.

The thing is he's Muslim and I'm Christian. Our beliefs contradict, he sometimes sees women as nothing. I don't like that. How can I be with someone that tells me to go upstairs when there are other men around.

I am my own person. Very bold person... and I can't be controlled.

I look forward to meeting the person that I will be with for a very long time.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

For no one but me

I'm so out of sync with this writing thing. I just hope I can write something interesting and impactful.
I'm at a crossroads in my life, in a couple of months- my contract for work finishes and I'm not sure whether I will get a permanent job.

There was actually a permanent job available, the deadline to apply was yesterday. I'm just not sure if it's for me. This corporate world, with an intense boss, a lot of pressure. Makes me want to move to the Maldives and start a  beach bar. Tempting.

Is the corporate world for me? What will it mean in the end if I have a fancy title and lots of cash. Lifestyle vs money.

I think increasingly about starting my own business, writing, teaching. I've always wanted to have my own business. That's for sure.

I have to share with you the time that I was desperate to make money, and I went around the neighborhood doing french manicures. I made R200  and that was in 2002(if I remember correctly)

So today, after an extensive period of procrastinating, I decided to write. Writing just sets my soul free. To just get it all down- puts things in perspective.

So- going back to  writing specifically- Travel writing. It's something that I feel is amazing. I would love to be able to combine two things that I love. And, with Travel writing- it would be creative writing.

I really want to live in a different country for a while.

I think I need to explore that option. I want to do so many things, while I am still young. I mean the other thing that I would really like to do is to learn a different language.

So to summarize:

  • Live in a different country
  • Learn a different language
  • Do travel writing
  • Have my own business perhaps connected to writing
  • Desperately want to own my own house
  • Have my own car
  • And most importantly- TRAVEL THE WORLD!